joshof13thfloor

Oh man, I fucked up bad today.

I got into a fight with my brother, a physical altercation.

I shouldn't have done it, I know, I regret it now but it's done.

I feel like such an idiot for having done it. It was pride, arrogance, and pettiness. I should have just walked away like I started to do.

After I pushed him I found I couldn't hit him in the face. I can't stand the little fucker but there's a part of me that still loves him.

Once it was started though I just wanted it done, through, over.

So, I wrestled him to the ground, floated over him, and then choked him out.

I'm not proud of it.

I've fucked things up so much. I'm supposed to help my mom move out of her house, and i've got to get our stuff out of her place too, and I don't know how to do that now without getting into another fight with my brother, and that's the last thing I want to do right now.

Fuck.

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I may not be around for a bit. There's something wrong with my explorer program, it will not open for some reason.

I'm going to try to get it fixed as soon as I can but I don't know how long that will take.

So, see you all when I see you.

Peace.

-Josh