So I've been kinda bummed the past couple days. Very restless.

I was just sort of rambling to people today at work. I love my job and am growing increasingly happier because with time I've realized how to spend my time with the quality people and not the ones that bother me. While rambling to the quality people it slipped out and I realized.

I think I've reached a point of being lonely. I was in a relationship. I ended it. Happily. I took some time off from people afterward. It wasn't a go out and bang loads of broads break up, more of a quiet reflective kind. I think I've been this way now because I haven't been quiet reflective in weeks but I haven't changed how I'm acting. I need something more though.

Unfortunately I can't meet girls at work. I can't date anyone because of my position of power and because I'd be uncomfortable.

I've gotten and given lots of numbers. But made them more work related than otherwise. Because though I get excited at the thought of a pretty girl giving me her number....I can't bring myself to be "let's go out" it has to be "see you at work tomorrow."

I need some free time that I'm actually not at work to meet new girls and get out of my funk.

I go out a lot with my gay friend who always does his best at defeating me form meeting girls (unintentionally)

I was supposed to go party hopping with another friend this weekend who decided he'd rather stay in and play xbox live all weekend.

I finally get a weekend off at the time I identify my problem....and I get no support in the solution.

Wonderful.

~J