i know this sounds pathedic, but i finally got drunk tonite. i was so happy. then i got droped off at mt buddy marks house and we watched the HBO special called "drug punched love" i think. it creeped me out because my brother ha told me his dope storys, but this movie put it into context. like pretending to be a prostitute, then when he hands you money, pretend to be a cop and say "lets make a deal" and instead of getting 20 bucks for giving a blow job, shes now got 100 and she didnt have to give a blow job. shit like that makes me sick, but its survival. besides having a "healthy" junk habit, they had to eat. and detox is such a joke. i think she compared it to staying in a hotel, and they serve you shitty breakfast. (the shitty breakfast is the drugs they give you in detox to bring you off junk) as soon as their out, they back on junk. but this documentery to me wasnt about the junk. deep down it was a love story about a 40 year old women who looks 65, and a retarded (gimp hand from crack) 25 year old in love...with junk. 
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Youre cute! I have wanted to tell you that
[Edited on Mar 28, 2005 4:07PM]