josephene

One hundred reasons to smile today, and my heart is sad? Why is this? Why can one situation with one person make all the good disappear? He doesn't mean to do this, he would give me the world and then some, would die before he would hurt me, but here I am...hurt. At a depth that I never knew existed before him. The happiness I get from him brings me to a higher being, looking down on the world around me. However, with one side, comes another, and the pain will take me to the deepest core of the earth, feeling all of those who walk over me. I took the bad with the good, a long time ago, when I accepted him into my life, knowing the obstacles that stood in front of us. Life will go on, whether I feel complete next to him or complete across the world. He's a part of me now, and will remain there. The obstacles to which I speak have become easier to jump over without fear or guilt. Maybe someday we'll make it to the finish line of this crazy race and live out the rest of our days together, or maybe I'll continue to cheer him on as he tries to run away from the demons that chase him. No one can decide but us, and it's getting close to that time.