Lately it is like I am just watching life. I am just like watching and everyone around me like it is a movie. I came back from Chile at the right time my best friend got out of prison after doing 5 years. This is my partner like we were as close as 2 men can get with out being gay...lol... We were involved in some well shady activity to say the least. Right before he got arrested I went on the legit path and have been on it ever since. Now flash back to today. I made a huge impulsive move to Chile and sold my car and moved out of where I was living. Not smart at all. I was stupid I thought I would be able to handle it there and things would be all gravy. Not true I came back here all but hurt I am not gonna say why even though I am not sure why I am still gonna protect the person there anyways... I am home now living with my grandma, I have to borrow my sisters car, and I have no job. My job is giving me the run around about hiring me back. Now this is no ones fault but my own I know this. Now my good friend is back. We go and see all kind of people I have not seen in years. There are reasons why I have not seen these people but it just feels so natural again. Like the gang is all here but now were more healthy. I have been dealing with the huge temptation to go back to my old life. I can't do it I know this but damn I could sure use some money right now.
From what you said it also sounds like you're dead broke. But, dude, you still have family and friends to aid and assist you, so you're actually more wealthy then you think. Stick to what you believe is right and go with it.