I think I am being baited by stupid people to see how long it takes for me to flip out!!! Last night someone was banging on my front door at 230am, I had to assume it was the wrong door because no one I know should ever feel the need to bother me at that hour! Living alone I was too scared to check and see who it was
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
...
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
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If I accumulate knowledge
I'll be impenetrable
If I am aloof no one will know
When they strike a nerve
If I keep my mouth shut the boat
Will not have to be rocked
If I am vulnerable I will be
Trampled upon
All of yesterday I kept complaining that I didn't want to be at home all night. I had no idea what I wanted to do or where I wanted to go, but I didn't want to be stuck in the apartment attached to my laptop and the television all night long. I didn't want to stay home and knit or crochet, and I didn't want... Read More
I must have missed the memo that it's the In thing to walk around playing shitty mp3 clips over and over.
And over.
It's especially In to do this while on public transportation, because everyone wants to hear the distorted (c)rap "music" blasting from your cellular device's tiny speakers. Oh, yes.
My betta, Harvey, committed suicide sometime between the night before last, and last night. Jeremy and I came home and I found his water-changing cup fish-less, with only water. He was dried out on the floor. -_- I accidentally forgot to put him back in the bowl after I changed the water (I didn't want to shock him so I wnated the new water to... Read More
For Christmas, Jeremy got me a Sega Genesis PlayTV Legends controller conplete with six games, two of which matter most - Sonic 2 and Ecco the Dolphin. I just opened the controller today and he hooked it up for me and watched as I awkwardly maneuvered through mazes and underwater caves, losing dolphin families and coins.
Sometimes I really wish I could delete myself from this life in a fit of existentialism. I had this conversation with my friend, and she kept asking questions, like, "But would people know you deleted yourself?" and "if you couldn't stick around somehow to see anyone's reaction, would it be worth it?"
She says it's not worth it, but I disagree. I think the whole... Read More
Yes, "numerous times". I'm going to guess it was no more than twenty times, but no less than ten. But saying it once was apparently not enough for him.
I get that same urge to "remove myself" from my life. Part of it is to see what would happen if I just vanished without warning, and the other part is a wanting to start fresh without any attachments.