jorgedetroit

I had a horrible day Friday. I lay in bed, filled with disgust, hatred, and overall depression. She met this guy less than a week ago and is staying at this house, fucking him. I don't know how i should feel about it honestly. It makes me feel like shit. I was there when the ex chose another girl becausse she was younger. but she doesn't relaize the hurt she is putting me through? I think the ultimate kick in the balls though is this whole idea we are going to be friends (because we are ona break and neither of us is "seeing" anyone. Because who knows we actually enjoy eachother {which i am believeing less and less that she enjoys me at all} ) but yet she can't call me, she can't hang out with me, she can't see a movie with me? what kind of friend is this? I know Ken is your only interest now, but that is shitty. So i retreat back into the dark. With the other trolls i guess. I don't understand how you could treat me like this. Youknow how this feels to be treated this way.

Here is the bitch of it all. I want to call her to go play disc golf. I want to ask if she wants to go roller blading. She is my best friend, The woman i love and want to be with forever. And she responds by acting like a chilld. Here is the fucking rotten part too. I can't forget all the good times we had together. Which iswhy i wanted us to remain friends, but she is unable to do it i guess.