jordyn

Sometimes I feel the need to divulge everything, spread my guts on the table, and now is feeling a bit like that.

Things have been hard. I lost someone I loved recently right after he returned from service in the military. It hurt. After that I ran for while only to meet up with someone who I thought I was close with. Mistakes were made on both sides during a talk at 4:30 am after a night of drinking (my mistake). We turned out to have a lot of doubts about each other and our friendship.

That was two weeks ago. this past Friday at a party, I was nearly bitch slapped by his ex-girlfriend's friend, what the mother fucking hell out of nowhere.

I haven't talked to him, other than what is courteous business conduct, we work together 1 hour once a week. I will say I miss being able to call him up but it wasn't and isn't right to continue the same.

This is the last thing I want to be thinking about when I'm working on my last push of graduating and getting ready for a big move to Kauai. I just feel run down. I'm thankful for all my friends that have been around me listening to "ehu, he's such and ass" and "fuck this shit" for the past two weeks but I know I've worn them down and It's time to get the move on but . . . it's just frustrating I guess.