jordyn

I'm in a funky mood today. Why? A lot of things. first and foremost I think (i can only think on this, I'll explain) that one of my guy friends that I sleep with semi frequently (I have terrible luck w/ BFs so i just don't date just casually see people, It's quite like dating just no titles) may be sleeping with again or just seeing a lot of his ex. It is one of my things, I don't like being fodder for ex girlfriends fight material. On top of that I like to keep my partners as monogamous as possible for heath and safety reasons. But I know the real root of the problem is that I have grown attached to him as a friend, not so much for the sex that was only average but the way he thinks and his talent at other things make him so unique, and if I bring this up it's done and I won't see him anymore. What led me to think this? Well I was at a Rugby practice and she was talking about her breaking her BOYFRIEND's camera. eh I'll have to use my girly gonads and suck it up, and confront him I know. Hell I do have back-ups. . .

Otherwise I've just been so busy, I've been out every night this week drinking and hanging out with people that I needed to catch up with, and it only made my mood worse. As much as I don't like this area and the people that come with it, the 2% of people I do like are such lovely people and caring and important to me, and this week I realized how much I will miss them when I leave. I know I can keep in touch but we all know it's not the same as being able show up at their doorstep w/ a 6pack after a hard day. Well that's what I get for being a sentimental bitch

There is other shit going on to on top of me trying to finish of my capstone so I can graduate (a capstone is like a senior project of sort of like working on a master's thesis sort of community service all rolled in to one for example my capstone is writing and Implementing a environmental consequence learning plan for a program that introduces city kids to nature). blah blah bla and so on and that's all folks-