jordyn

I'm 21 and I know I shouldn't feel like this. My life is only begining, but everything is ending right now. I'm tired of fighting and trying. I've reached the point where I want to crawl up in to a ball and wave the white flag, It's not that I'm being stepped on its that I'm being stepped over.

It feels like things will never be okay and all the happy moments I'm to see in my life are to be in my memories. I can't seem to cry, but i feel so vulanerable and torn on what to do and how to follow through.

I need a new begining, one where i don't let others tell me how I should proceedBut I don't even know where to start. I wish i wasn't some things like trusting and shy, I want to be open an flamboyant all the time let out what i have within me .

I'm thinking about leaving school for a little while I need to be away from this area I've leaned on them all to long. I don't know if i can afford it but.....

I'm lost in my trivial problems, this little hiccup feels like the end of the world and I find myself turning the simplest things in to battles.