I havent updated in a bit.
The Christmas trip with Brian to Arizona went smoothly. The San Jose airport was surprisingly empty and easy to manage. First Class seating on the plane is the only way to go, let me tell you. It was cool that Brian got to spend time with his friends. They welcomed me like I was part of the family. (Although, I DID take my blue pills to stay calm.)
I started getting sick on the last day of the trip. By the time we got home, I had a full-blown-please-kill-me-now flu.
I am just now starting to feel back to normal. Brian was so sweet during my ugly sick time. He took care of me, got me medication, rubbed my back while I got sick, the whole nine yards. Its so hard for me to let others take care of me, even when I need it. I am grateful that he was there though.
We are going to stay in for New Years Eve. I talked him into watching the Twilight Zone Marathon on Sci-Fi channel. We are going to get snacks and beverages and snuggle in for the long haul. Yay!
I cant believe that its going to be 2005 soon. I remember when I thought 1999 was a big deal, and then 2000 was a big deal. Here I am, five years later. Time passes so fast. I remember when I thought that I had all the time in the world to do anything that I wanted. I never thought about time running out. Summers seemed slow and lazy. School dragged by. Now, I feel like Im in a revolving door that spins faster and faster with every revolution. It scares the Hell out of me. My friends suicide has made me evaluate my life even more than the upcoming New Year normally would. I feel like I let everything slide for so long, that I dont know where to begin to make up for all the life that I let slip by me. I dont know what the first step should be. The fact that a new year is happening now is sort of appropriate. I want to start fresh more than I have ever wanted to before. I hope that Im not kidding myself and talking a big game. I hope that I get off my ass and take action this time.
Happy New Year all!
The Christmas trip with Brian to Arizona went smoothly. The San Jose airport was surprisingly empty and easy to manage. First Class seating on the plane is the only way to go, let me tell you. It was cool that Brian got to spend time with his friends. They welcomed me like I was part of the family. (Although, I DID take my blue pills to stay calm.)
I started getting sick on the last day of the trip. By the time we got home, I had a full-blown-please-kill-me-now flu.
I am just now starting to feel back to normal. Brian was so sweet during my ugly sick time. He took care of me, got me medication, rubbed my back while I got sick, the whole nine yards. Its so hard for me to let others take care of me, even when I need it. I am grateful that he was there though.
We are going to stay in for New Years Eve. I talked him into watching the Twilight Zone Marathon on Sci-Fi channel. We are going to get snacks and beverages and snuggle in for the long haul. Yay!
I cant believe that its going to be 2005 soon. I remember when I thought 1999 was a big deal, and then 2000 was a big deal. Here I am, five years later. Time passes so fast. I remember when I thought that I had all the time in the world to do anything that I wanted. I never thought about time running out. Summers seemed slow and lazy. School dragged by. Now, I feel like Im in a revolving door that spins faster and faster with every revolution. It scares the Hell out of me. My friends suicide has made me evaluate my life even more than the upcoming New Year normally would. I feel like I let everything slide for so long, that I dont know where to begin to make up for all the life that I let slip by me. I dont know what the first step should be. The fact that a new year is happening now is sort of appropriate. I want to start fresh more than I have ever wanted to before. I hope that Im not kidding myself and talking a big game. I hope that I get off my ass and take action this time.
Happy New Year all!
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BUT - after looking through this book of publishing houses 2005, I'm feeling pretty confidant that if one of the big boys won't publish it, then one of the hundreds of smaller ones will.
Soo.....I'll keep ya updated
Also - I HIGHLY reccomend going ahead and writing a book, since you are already considering it. I can't tell even express very cathartic is it.
[Edited on Jan 05, 2005 1:18PM]