jora

I am very tired, content and happy. Life is so surprising sometimes...I hope the Universe will let me enjoy this new experience.

It's an amazing feeling and I am taking it day by day, revelling in the beauty of it and the discoveries of the heart, mind, spirit and soul.

I am melting into another form. Maybe I will soon no longer be IceAndStone, after all.

Sigh....

(edit, 4:50pm) More.......

So, I looked back at my last few entries and realized that emotionally, I've been a roller-coaster. Jeez!

I guess I needed to go through all that to come out on the other side.

I'm not "angry" at The Visitor anymore. I just feel sad. I recently got to tell him the things that I wanted to, and therefore, no matter what the outcome has been since then, I feel a sense of closure. When I think of him now, it is like it happened in another life to another version of myself. I know he won't call anymore, even though he said he would., but I still wish him the best and hope he can allow himself to find happiness somewhere inside himself. I hope he can learn to forgive his own heart and let it open to the world again.

I can't believe I am still at work right now. My shift ended at 3:30pm, but I feel such a lazy peacefulness, that I feel in no rush to leave. It's nice to take advantage of the DSL here instead of having to use my dial-up at home.

I cannot wait to go home and walk the dog, feed the cats and then finally, for the first time in weeks TAKE A NAP! I can't imagine anything more wonderful right now (except if the Baby was there too - ) than to curl up and snooze. I know that after I get some REM in my brain, I will feel even more centered and serene. Ahhhh.....

Now if I just had food in the house, I would be completely satisfied. How often have I come close to feeling that? Not very.

I miss all of you that I am close with. I will post, etc. to you soon. Much and a million to you. PLEASE wish me good energy. I don't want what I'm feeling to end.

Meow....