Well, Im back at Hell, I mean work. Within 3 days of being back there, I feel my brain cells dying, my spirit shriveling and my body aching. I AM back on my anti-anxiety meds now, because I started having an attack Tuesday morning. Nice. My boss is quitting soon (Jan.15) so the BIG bosses from Paris are here. They seem okay, but I know that behind the scenes they are treating my boss like shit for leaving. She told me today to not trust them and only look out for myself. I stupidly have an excellent work ethic and treat my workplace like its my company. I go way beyond the limit of what I should do. I think I will make an effort to be a regular employee from now on. Not that I will shirk my responsibilities, but I think I will take it down to 95% instead of 110%.
The nice thing about the holidays (usually I hate the holidays) is that we will be having some outside of work get-togethers. We are going to a fancy place called La Fondue for Thanksgiving and going to SF to see Cirque Du Soleil for Christmas. Apparently, we are also going to have a surprise going away party for my boss in Jan. also. Oh, the bonding! A plus of bonding is that I get to socialize with my hot co-wker after shes had wine. I really wish it could somehow end up in kisses between us, but I know it wont. Im trying to talk her into going to La Fondue with me, so I can possibly kidnap her afterwards. It depends how much wine shes had. LOL.
Im drinking my first mug of hot chocolate this season right now. Hmm. Tasty and warm. It is one of things I like about Fall/Winter warm drinks.
I am puzzled as to why dogs try to eat poo from the cat litter box. Does anyone know? It is so gross and I freak out when my pup tries to sneak in there and grab some. She has a million toys and chew bones, for the love of Mary-Lou. Why do this? WHY????
Things I like today:
Millipedes
L-Lysine tablets
My masseuse, Kerry (she is a wonderful girl)
Dogs that weigh 5 LBS. (a.k.a. Portable Pups)
My cat Martinas belly
My dryer is working
My bosss new green coat
Silence
Reading
Electric mattress pads (warm!)
I am just rambling now. How boring. I have no life and nothing to say. I need someone to lavish my attention on.
Goodnight.
The nice thing about the holidays (usually I hate the holidays) is that we will be having some outside of work get-togethers. We are going to a fancy place called La Fondue for Thanksgiving and going to SF to see Cirque Du Soleil for Christmas. Apparently, we are also going to have a surprise going away party for my boss in Jan. also. Oh, the bonding! A plus of bonding is that I get to socialize with my hot co-wker after shes had wine. I really wish it could somehow end up in kisses between us, but I know it wont. Im trying to talk her into going to La Fondue with me, so I can possibly kidnap her afterwards. It depends how much wine shes had. LOL.
Im drinking my first mug of hot chocolate this season right now. Hmm. Tasty and warm. It is one of things I like about Fall/Winter warm drinks.
I am puzzled as to why dogs try to eat poo from the cat litter box. Does anyone know? It is so gross and I freak out when my pup tries to sneak in there and grab some. She has a million toys and chew bones, for the love of Mary-Lou. Why do this? WHY????
Things I like today:
Millipedes
L-Lysine tablets
My masseuse, Kerry (she is a wonderful girl)
Dogs that weigh 5 LBS. (a.k.a. Portable Pups)
My cat Martinas belly
My dryer is working
My bosss new green coat
Silence
Reading
Electric mattress pads (warm!)
I am just rambling now. How boring. I have no life and nothing to say. I need someone to lavish my attention on.
Goodnight.
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THanks, again.
I used to be one of those 110% workers for the corporation. But that was back when I believed... believed blindly in things actually being how they appear. When that belief system collapsed and I started looking past the surface into the truth of things I could no longer believe in my corporation, and that was when I stopped giving 110%. Or even 100%. I don't know what % I am giving now, but it is just enough to tread water in the corporate heirarchy. Although recently the company relocated to better working conditions, so things have been looking up. At the end of all that, I don't know what to tell you. In some ways I was happier in my job when I was giving 110%, but it was not a kind of happiness built on solid foundations, so it could not stand. Still... sometimes I think only a fool turns away any kind of happiness... sorry to ramble! I hope you've been well.