jora

I am frustrated tonight!

I still don't know if I can keep the dog. She is adjusting, but the walks 3 times a day are killing me. I don't mind the daytime (6pm and 10pm), but the 3am is going to make me find her a new home. I'm sort of attached to her, but not enough so that I wouldn't be happy to find her a really good home. I feel like I have no free time anymore and I don't want to neglect her. It'd be so different if I lived in a house, or even an apt. on the ground floor.

I am so overwhelmed right now. I've started arriving late to work because I'm so damn tired from waking up at 3am. My mother is going to drive me into an early grave. She is so dramatic that I just cannot take anymore. The more she acts needy, the less I want to be around her. Sigh...

I am craving a girl to cuddle with again. No offense boys, but girls are just more comforting for me. There should be a pay cuddle service and then I can just order someone asap. Big sigh...

I think I may feel better when I get my hair bleached. The fateful day is Oct. 7th. I am cutting a lot off (to the shoulders) and having it bleached as white as it will go. I need a change - a big change! What the hell. It's only hair and mine is quite boring right now. I figure if I cannot keep up with the roots, I'll just go fire-cherry red. I need a good hair shock. I'm sure the girls here know what I mean.

Goodnight one and all. I feel so out of touch with you. I miss a few of you a lot (no emails, no journal entries). I guess I'll just have to start harassing you to get a response.

Bye.