Well, I had the talk with my mother about the new truck and it went how I thought it would. She was very defensive and pissed off. I am for sure not going to accept the truck now! The 1% of doubt in my mind has been convinced that it would be a very bad move. When I suggested the compromise of just fixing up my current truck, she snapped angrily at me, Its a new truck or NOTHING! That settles that, I guess. I knew that her gift giving had nothing really to do with me. If it did, there would be no anger, no conditions. Now she wont be able to brag to her friends about how she is so wonderful and bought her sad pathetic daughter a new truck. Also, she will have to come up with a reason that its not happening. Im sure shell make me look like the ungrateful bad guy, but oh well, what can I do? Whatever. I had to hold back tears when she was fuming with rage. It is so upsetting that 1) she cannot just love me like a normal parent, 2) wants me to stay dependent on her and 3) she is an asshole and well probably never be close. Sigh
The good news is that my vacation went pretty well. I actually left the house, even thought it was to go grocery shopping. And, the biggie, I went swimming for the first time in over 10 years in a public pool (at my apt. complex). I have such body-image issues and social issues, that it was a very big deal for me to go. I know, sounds silly, but its true. After the initial panic, I actually enjoyed myself. I even began to relax for the first time in a long time. I did laps and played around for 2 wonderful hours and got a bit of a sun burn. Its been so long, I forgot that I needed to worry about sun-screen (being the pale girl that I am).
Work didnt suck too much today. Its nice only working Friday and then having another 2 days off. Next week is going to possibly suck because once again, my co-wker is off on a vacation for 6 weekdays. I hope that I survive.
Other than that, my life is its usual uneventful self. I started a new novel, and I love my cats.
Super exciting. Oh, and I love that new fruit, the pluot. I cannot eat enough of them. I highly recommend that everyone buy one and dig in. 
Thats it for now. Take care all.
The good news is that my vacation went pretty well. I actually left the house, even thought it was to go grocery shopping. And, the biggie, I went swimming for the first time in over 10 years in a public pool (at my apt. complex). I have such body-image issues and social issues, that it was a very big deal for me to go. I know, sounds silly, but its true. After the initial panic, I actually enjoyed myself. I even began to relax for the first time in a long time. I did laps and played around for 2 wonderful hours and got a bit of a sun burn. Its been so long, I forgot that I needed to worry about sun-screen (being the pale girl that I am).
Work didnt suck too much today. Its nice only working Friday and then having another 2 days off. Next week is going to possibly suck because once again, my co-wker is off on a vacation for 6 weekdays. I hope that I survive.
Other than that, my life is its usual uneventful self. I started a new novel, and I love my cats.
Super exciting. Oh, and I love that new fruit, the pluot. I cannot eat enough of them. I highly recommend that everyone buy one and dig in.
Thats it for now. Take care all.
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its sounds strangley yummy (whatever it is).
i love swimming.