Tuesday Aug 12, 2003

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I didn't get much sleep. Was up most of the night sobbing. Finally found someone to call me and talk me down (some guy I barely know). Today I feel tired and very paranoid. I am almost convinced that someone has been in my apartment. There is an item missing that I couldn't have lost or misplaced. I set a little trap in the door before I left for work to see if the door is opened. Saw that on TV once. I feel crazy today. I feel like I'm going crazy. Maybe this is what it feels like. Crazy people aren't supposed to know that they are crazy, right? Is that always true? They must know that SOMETHING isn't right. I have nowhere to turn. I'm just trying to survive minute by minute.

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radiobastet:
You're right, usually people don't care, and that is only one of the myriad things that is dreadfully wrong with life on this planet today... I hope you've told your doctor about this; maybe your medication needs to be adjusted. At any rate, please don't go through this alone!!! And please feel free to talk to me anytime.

kiss
schleprock:
Well, I made it home and I'm a little more balanced now. I ended up crying like an ass at work. Luckily, there was only one witness and she was cool about it.

Give Taco big 'ol kitty kisses for me.

I am worried about you right now. You should see about getting in to see your doc or therapist. Truely carzy people don't know that they are crazy but people with depression or anxiety attacks know that something is wrong which makes things worse.

I have cried a number of times at work with many witnesses and they always seemed much more upset by it than I was.

Hopefully no one has been in your appartment. That would be way too spooky and scary for words. And feel free to use my email address any time.

take care,
Rodney

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