jora

7/6/2006

I went to Togo's yesterday and the sandwich girl commented on my tattoos.

She asked the usual, "Did that hurt?"

I answer, "Sort of, but I just go to my zen place and it doesn't hurt really."

She replies, "Oh, where is that? Is that where you got tattooed?"

Um...no sandwich-making retard, do you not know what "zen" is? I stopped myself before I said adrenaline, because apparently she wouldn't know big words.

I swear, our world is doomed.

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7/4/2006

Again, it has been ages since I've been able to update. I still have no idea how people work full-time and live their lives. Going online has gone to the bottom of my list of things to do. So sad.

Fun:

Brian and I celebrated our 2 year living together anniversary on July 2nd. We went to the early evening performances of "Day on the Meadow" (since I had to work during the day) and saw our favorite band, Dresden Dolls. They kicked our butts in a really good way. *smile* I just love them. They are so talented. It's been a long while since I've been to a music festival type thing.

Brian and I got our caricatures done too. We look all cute. The artist is really good. I am going to pimp her website once she gets it running. I will post a pic of it when I get the time.

I have also bought tickets for a fun surprise for me and Brian at the end of the month. I can't wait. Brian has no idea what it is, but he will LOVE it.

I am craving the ocean. I've been trying to find time to get to Santa Cruz for weeks now. *sigh* If I ever get there, it will be fun.

People:

I would say "friends", but I don't feel I have any. Not really. Except for Brian.

The mombeast still annoys me. I am so tired of her mind games.

I hate when people are negative. I used to be one of those people and I try very hard to NOT be anymore. Being around those types brings me down in a big way. It feels like fighting a battle and I don't have energy for that.

I've been thinking a lot about a certain "friend" of mine. She is someone I've known since childhood. It has always been a struggle to love her due to her drinking problem and passive-aggressive behavior. Recently, I cut off contact between us for my own well-being. I've had to do this a few times in the past 20 years. She never understands what her behavior does to me. I hate that it is always so complicated with her. I've always felt that our friendship was one-sided, with me being the one who gave good energy to it. I know she has a good heart, but she is so messed up that I can't explain to her my position. She just doesn't get it.

I am very sad about the whole thing. I have dreams with her in them. I have the compulsion to call her, but if I do, I know the whole craziness will start up all over again and she will have learned nothing.

Co-wkers, for the most part, suck. I have such a hard time dealing with people. I am sensitive to everything, meaning that I pick up people's energy and it effects me. It makes me crazy to hear people be negative, talk cruelly about animals, talk about dysfunctional relationships and how they stay in them, act like they are the only person in the world so who cares how they treat it and the people around them - all that crap. It makes me want to scream.

Health:

I am finally starting to feel better, which means having only the normal aches I usually feel. I ended up going to the doctor and getting meds for my back pain. *crosses fingers* I can't take much more of this.

I can't think of anything else right now, so later gaters.