Longer entry...have a seat. 
2/15/2006
It has been forever since Ive updated. I dont work and I have no life, but somehow everything has been chaos.
Since I last posted a real entry, Ive
- went to acupuncture twice (weird experience and I am not sure if I am going to continue doing it)
- went to my very good friends dads funeral (whom Ive known 28 years, so it was very sad)
- argued with a vacuum repair man
- saw the mombeast and almost lost my mind
- went to an Improv night and acted out weird crap with people I barely know
- took Beau & Little Bit to the vet
- got older on my birthday (ugh!)
- went to the downtown SJ poetry slam
- experienced Costco (with the mombeast) for the first time in my adult life (not fun at all)
- me and Brian had dinner with the mombeast (funny how she wont go away)
- went to the dentist for the first time in 14 years !! (good news is that I have excellent teeth for not having been to dentist in that long, bad news is that I have to go back at least 4 times to have dental work done to make my teeth all perfect again)
- went to The Improv in downtown SJ for the first time and saw a hypnotist/comedian
- had plans for Valentines Day with Brian, but I had an anxiety/panic/depression attack and so we spent all day sleeping instead
- watched Without A Paddle, Garden State and Shaun of the Dead in one night, thus staying up until 4am
- took Brian to the podiatrist and watched him do a procedure on my poor hobbled boyfriend
Tomorrow, both Brian and I have to go to the doctor. I am freaking out a little, because I have to talk to her about going back on meds again. I am becoming non-functional in every day life. (Like, who cries at The Country Inn during lunch for no reason?)
I also have to ask the doc to schedule my first mammogram and my first bone density test because I am all old now and that is what one is supposed to do. Thats just craptastic!
Brian has more foot appts. coming up and I have more dental crap coming up, which makes us both turn into babies. We are going to the appts. with each other so while one of us cries like a little girl, the other one can be the nurturing voice of reason. (Have I ever mentioned that I have a phobia about invasive procedures being done in my mouth? I had a fun panic attack during my first dental visit. What fun!)
The only thing I am looking forward to is an all-girls lunch that is supposed to happen this Sunday. I only know one of the girls, but I need friends, damn it, so Im going.
Other than all this, Ive just been an emotional mess, filled with self-hated and the like (which is why I havent been posting, not like anyone has asked or anything).
Ta ta for now. I am going to rot my brain with American Idol now.
2/15/2006
It has been forever since Ive updated. I dont work and I have no life, but somehow everything has been chaos.
Since I last posted a real entry, Ive
- went to acupuncture twice (weird experience and I am not sure if I am going to continue doing it)
- went to my very good friends dads funeral (whom Ive known 28 years, so it was very sad)
- argued with a vacuum repair man
- saw the mombeast and almost lost my mind
- went to an Improv night and acted out weird crap with people I barely know
- took Beau & Little Bit to the vet
- got older on my birthday (ugh!)
- went to the downtown SJ poetry slam
- experienced Costco (with the mombeast) for the first time in my adult life (not fun at all)
- me and Brian had dinner with the mombeast (funny how she wont go away)
- went to the dentist for the first time in 14 years !! (good news is that I have excellent teeth for not having been to dentist in that long, bad news is that I have to go back at least 4 times to have dental work done to make my teeth all perfect again)
- went to The Improv in downtown SJ for the first time and saw a hypnotist/comedian
- had plans for Valentines Day with Brian, but I had an anxiety/panic/depression attack and so we spent all day sleeping instead
- watched Without A Paddle, Garden State and Shaun of the Dead in one night, thus staying up until 4am
- took Brian to the podiatrist and watched him do a procedure on my poor hobbled boyfriend
Tomorrow, both Brian and I have to go to the doctor. I am freaking out a little, because I have to talk to her about going back on meds again. I am becoming non-functional in every day life. (Like, who cries at The Country Inn during lunch for no reason?)
I also have to ask the doc to schedule my first mammogram and my first bone density test because I am all old now and that is what one is supposed to do. Thats just craptastic!
Brian has more foot appts. coming up and I have more dental crap coming up, which makes us both turn into babies. We are going to the appts. with each other so while one of us cries like a little girl, the other one can be the nurturing voice of reason. (Have I ever mentioned that I have a phobia about invasive procedures being done in my mouth? I had a fun panic attack during my first dental visit. What fun!)
The only thing I am looking forward to is an all-girls lunch that is supposed to happen this Sunday. I only know one of the girls, but I need friends, damn it, so Im going.
Other than all this, Ive just been an emotional mess, filled with self-hated and the like (which is why I havent been posting, not like anyone has asked or anything).
Ta ta for now. I am going to rot my brain with American Idol now.
heh -hugs-
i know the feeling
believe me i know the feeling
wtf american idol shit tha tmind rotting garbage would make me hate myself and humanity.......
even when im in a good mood, and moreso than i usually do -chuckles-