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jonny_trouble

Oakland,CA

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Thursday Feb 17, 2005

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So... i got bored at work on tuesday, and i wrote a new song.... here it is. ( i normally dont show other people my songs for 2 reasone... humiliation, or someone stealing them... but oh well)

My own suicide



I sit back full of hurt,
I dont know how to deal,
The pain makes me feel alive,
Its the only thing thats real.

So I strike a match,
And I take two deep breaths,
The smell of fate, the taste of relief,
An almost certain death.

I control my destiny,
I control my life,
I control my death,
It controls me every night.

Every time I light up,
It makes me feel alive.
With every single puff,
I know its killing me inside.
I know if I continue,
Im slowly gonna die.
So I light one more cigarette,
Its my own suicide.

Surrounded by a battlefield,
Dead soldiers all around,
I smoke them to the filter,
Then I toss them to the ground.

It makes the pain disappear,
It helps me deal with life,
It gets me through the day,
It lets me sleep at night.

Every time I light up,
It makes me feel alive.
With every single puff,
I know its killing me inside.
I know if I continue,
Im slowly gonna die.
So I light one more cigarette,
Its my own suicide.

No need to shed a tear.
No cause to dry an eye.
I control my destiny,
Its my own suicide.



VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
vintagedust:
i love it jonny! i've loved everything i've heard from you! hope to see you soon. it was nice talking to you today.
<33 Aubreyana
Feb 18, 2005
finch:
hi.

you're pretty.

have a nice day.
Feb 18, 2005

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