jonny_trouble

As i sit at work not having done a single fucking piercing all day, i sit and ponder my existence... Why am i here for what reason??? maybe ill make one up. I will soon find myself at the INKSLINGERS BALL in HOLLYWEIRD showing some of my tattoos and hopefully winning first place, one can only hope... i see myself up on stage in front of thousands of starngers, and see the same kind of humiliation as a bad dream where i find myself at school naked... i wake up. i know that nothing other than first place will please me... am i a perfectionist??? or just stubborn as hell. i know that i strive to be perfect, but i hear that no one is perfect so i dont try as hard and i FAIL.. and it sucks. OH woe is me... BOO FUCKING HOO! i know that i need to find a girl to KEEP ME IN LINE, but i have yet to find her. My heart hurts... ISN'T IT AMAZING HOW A PAIN IN UR ASS TURNS TO A PAIN IN UR HEART ONCE THEY'RE GONE??? i did what i did and wouldnt change it for the world... ive never been happier than i am now... ive got a awesome job, great freinds, cheetos, and beer... who could ask for more... i went to the market the other day and some kid with his mother points at me and says"mommy mommy, look at him... he's stupid", his mother paid him no mind... then i turned to him and pointed and said" HAHA YOUR MOMMY HATES U AND UR DADDY'S A FAG!" then i turned and walked away... im not a mean person... im actually quite nice. it just bothers me when people judge me before they know me... I HAD HAD ENOUGH! I HATE EVERYONE AND LOVE EVERYONE AT THE SAME TIME.... is that possible... i feel as if im rambling on... life is to difficult to be perfect, to confusing to try to understand, to short to cherish, and to worthless to count ... I SIT HERE PONDERING MY EXISTENCE...