jonnnnny

no drinking for the rest of the week for meeeee. keep one getting more and more drunk each time i go out and i think its prolly best i break the cycle now before i end up doing somthing stupid or wake up in a hospital/police station and think 'hmmmmm i dont know why im here but im sure the events preceeding this were not pretty'. so i know when to stop so i shall.

going home on wednesday so ill have to go out drinking with my friends at home. i know this contradicts what i said before but the way i see it... oh i have no excuse so fuck it. im a liar, blatent liar. i cant be trusted - i lie to myself.

found a lump in my ear yesterday and thought 'hmmmzzz... i really hope i dont have cancer, that would really ruin my day.' but the lump is smaller today so im guessing its not cancer. if it goes away i think its just best not to ask questions.

ignorence is a virtue.