jonas

i gotta go to bed, but before i take a break from this spectacular bender, i managed to write this in my friend's journal. it's regarding this quote from nietzsche--
"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."

easy for him to say... he's dead.

but so is mista c to the g jung... bruddah was all like:

"the foundation of all mental illness is the unwillingness to experience legitimate suffering."

so fucking zen it's ridiculous.

i group this "mental illness" into a grander category than is probably academically popular. i dunno, i doubt that jung included biochemistry and physiology vs. the noggin... body vs. mind in his profundity. the fact is despite the ability to invent god, we are still the sum of our atomic/elemental parts and subject to the reactions therein... sometimes shit happens to you or because of you due to an electro-chemical response to the imbalance of insulin, glucose, aminos, estrogen, testosterone, etcetera...

bend like a reed in the wind. i'd quote it but i feel that one's mine... accept your path and embrace it. rejoice in the wonder that is your special, though not in any way unique, version of hardship, suffering, longing, remorse... they are only symptoms of a greater force that, if you are lucky, drives you to the point of an elevated sense of comfort, peace, joy, harmony...enlightenment. the funny thing is that enlightenment is the state of nothing. total acceptance of all things. no desire, pain, greed, envy, or any attachment to the emotions that dictate the decisions that define your life...

what's fucked up is that you aren't attached to the emotions that cause pain, loss and bad behavior...that's great, but you don't feel the ecstasy of joy, or the intensity of success, or the myriad moments that we experience that make our time here so precious...