jonas

i won...

i totally fucking won. thursday night i was booked to play records at a popular spot here in town. here's the thing: it was my first time spinning at a real club. a two hour set, 10 to 12. a helluva good spot for a weeknight but i'd never really played that long before... yikes.

i knew about the gig for weeks but was too busy to really think about it. next thing i knew the day had arrived. i was so nervous i almost peed my pants...

here's the goal: just don't TOTALLY fuck up...

i focused on that. i made arrangements to get to the club early to get used to the mixer and soundsystem. i don't know what it was but i must've done something right 'cause it was the best i have ever played ever... holy crap, the dancefloor was packed. people were jumpin, yeliing and freaking out to the beats.

i tore shit up, the whole time behind the decks dancing and holllering and having the best time ever aalong with everyone else. so great.

things like this make the self-loathing very difficult to maintain.

i got booked to play again... headlining in the main room. this time took so much outta me i won't do it for at least a few weeks.

affirmation = good