jon87uk

Hello to all, I'm starting this afresh, I feel I didn't make the most of my time on here before and hope this time it works out better.

Soooo....basic rant, 19 year old student, just finnished my first semester of university and have come back home for the first time in 3 months, it's all very odd. I haven't even thought about soo many people it almost makes me guilty coming back and them seeming soo glad to see me. I just don't know if it because I'm not the person that left 3 months ago or if its just that they aren't the people who really mattered to me.

Lately I seem to find myself deeply thinking through every single part of my life, past and present, a recent aquintance has opened my eyes to my more rational thoughts and its left me wishing to move forward more rather than dwell in the past. I'm just waiting for the stimulation for my body to act upon this. I miss not having someone but then again I'm in no way wanting anyone from my past to fill that void. I want new friends...I need new friends. I wish there was a simpler way to grow up and keep everyone happy.

Life is always gonna be hard, it wasn't just when we were kids...