johnsonboy

"Unchain My Heart" Ray Charles

I woke up this moring and realized I don't feel sorry for myself anymore. that trip around the north end of California did something good for me.
I haven't mentioned eskimo girl in a few days and believe me that's good news.
I saw her only once after promising those other girls not to see her anymore. It was to get my book back. I think we had lunch and went to a play. I was foolish enough to ask her to go to a movie with me a day or two later. She wouldn't say yes or no at the time, but told me to check with her later.

It really bothered me when I checked later and she was going out with someone else on the night we had discussed. That was her specialty: never saying yes or no but always doing something else. i only ever got to see her when she felt like seeing me. It was a fatally unbalanced situation.
I have thought I was over the whole thing a few times but she tends to call me at those times and speak in low sweet tones about inspiration and nobility.
So I would always agree to see her when she felt like it, and miss her when I wanted some company. It went for an undignified length of time.
She's still lovable. Don't get me wrong. But the whole affair looks different to me now.
That's all I'm saying. It was good to be out of town.