johnnyxcliche

I have become my father...dear lord...I work all day, come home for a few drinks, pass out and wake up tomorrow to do it all over...and I said I'd never end up like him...this scares me, because I also said I'd be a better father than him as well...maybe I shouldn't have kids...god that's heart-breaking...even though I love him, and I know the things he did were for the better good I still dread the thought of being him...but maybe being him wouldn't be so bad if I had a son who turned out like me, but then again I haven't turned out so well...dammit...all I need is someone to love, and someone to love me...I fucking hate life, and yet love it too much to let go...damned mood swings...fuck it, I'm going to bed...