johnnythsaint

Some people live a life, beautiful and nice,
But I have ruined mine, through my own device.

Slept in the day and roamed the night,
I didnt have a job, I didnt have a life.
I lost friends I broke up bands.
Self-destruction, from my own hands.

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Getting older, more annoyed.
Darkness since I was a boy.
Time to rebuild the life that I destroyed.

She was beautiful, calm and sedate,
I turned a little love, into a lot of hate.

I could blame luck I could blame fate,
But its hard to like something when all it does is hate.
Turn on the charm and seize the day,
But its so much easier to push them all away.

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Had my first drink when I was nine.
I lost my way, I lost my mind.
And Im just one whiskey bar away,
From the terrifying, other side of me...
...the monster.

I know Im the one that you despise,
See it in your body language, see it in your eyes.
So this is how it ends,
A full-fledged hating heart and mind that used to be my friend.

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This song is by one of the most amazing bands I have seen in the past ten years and they disappeared before recording much of anything. One thing that amazes me is how closely these lyrics mirror my life story. I'm sober, but like it says up there "Im just one whiskey bar away,
From the terrifying, other side of me...
...the monster." I'm not having trouble with it right now, but sometimes I need to remind myself how close I am to that side of myself, how easy it would be to lose control.

Oh yeah, another thirty points to anyone who knows the band. NO HINTS this time!!