johnnyk47

Ever since new years eve my ex has been emailing me once a day. Basically she wants me back and all to herself. She has dated since we broke up 7 months ago but apparently still thinks only of me. You know the regular "I want you back" type of story. The thing is I don't think I can be in a relationship with her, I mean sure when things were good and we were alone, we were happy. But she was the insanely jealous type.. like she would call any other girl a whore/slut/bitch.... whatever, even if she didn't know the person at all. It was just straight up anger geared towards other girls. I lost a few friends the first time we started going out... then some more when I tried it again.

I mean yeah I got a few back but it's just not the same. She ruined my birthday horribly and embarrassed me in front of not only my friends and fellow workers.. but my parents most of all. I mean friends can look past certain things and such but my parents wont. My best bud even heard her hit me and wanted to burst down my room door. You would think that she hit me with reason... but no she was just angry and upset because of things..... I don't even want to go into. My dad said I shouldn't have to deal with that and I know he is right. I don't want to deal with that even if I love someone. I think it's abusive not only the physical but there were some mentally abusive things too.

I don't know why I'm writing this.. I think I just needed to get it out somewhere. I mean every email I get seems to get more and more crazy... to a point where she says she cant live without me and in the last one she just keeps asking me to love her and be with her.. nothing else.. just that for mostly the whole email. I just don't know what to do and I can't really talk to my friends or family about this... only because it is a bit crazy and I can't put them through more exposure to...this craziness.