EDIT: Saturday, O'Hanlons! It's gonna be my birthday, so you all hafta make me a happy little birthday boy by being there! I was planing on going there at 9:30ish, but my roomie is trying to convince me to hold off tille 10:40 so I can go snowboarding during the day.. hmmmm
So I presented my first video piece in art class today. It went over well, it was a portrait of my relationship with pot, and my decision to quit. But there was this one comment that really stuck with me, it was my prof, when I mentioned that quitting was pretty easy this time around, he said "Well its real easy if you never actually quit" (I had said that I had had about a hit a month since stopping). Now I have no problem with taking a hit every once in a while, and it is still quitting in my mind, going to that from smoking many times daily, but it got me thinking about hte other recent changes I have percieved myself to have gone through. Have I really changed completely, or merely gotten close to the goal Iw as aspiring towards and just hung out near it, never actually completely delving in? I know it's pretty common for people to think they've changed only to find out that they haven't, but when that happens to a person how commented where they to that change? Did the actually dig into their minds and find the root cause of their actions and work with great difficulty in that aspect, or did they merely decide it was time to change so decided to do so? Has this happened to any of you out there, and what was you're experience?
In other news yesterday I was made very happy by a beautiful and smart little cookie. Part of my concern over whether I can keep the growth I've achieved in myself comes from my desire to not mess things up this time, cause I don't want to be with anyone else right now.
And heres a tiny little snippet from my video piece (shitty quality's all that'd fit on this site
)
So I presented my first video piece in art class today. It went over well, it was a portrait of my relationship with pot, and my decision to quit. But there was this one comment that really stuck with me, it was my prof, when I mentioned that quitting was pretty easy this time around, he said "Well its real easy if you never actually quit" (I had said that I had had about a hit a month since stopping). Now I have no problem with taking a hit every once in a while, and it is still quitting in my mind, going to that from smoking many times daily, but it got me thinking about hte other recent changes I have percieved myself to have gone through. Have I really changed completely, or merely gotten close to the goal Iw as aspiring towards and just hung out near it, never actually completely delving in? I know it's pretty common for people to think they've changed only to find out that they haven't, but when that happens to a person how commented where they to that change? Did the actually dig into their minds and find the root cause of their actions and work with great difficulty in that aspect, or did they merely decide it was time to change so decided to do so? Has this happened to any of you out there, and what was you're experience?
In other news yesterday I was made very happy by a beautiful and smart little cookie. Part of my concern over whether I can keep the growth I've achieved in myself comes from my desire to not mess things up this time, cause I don't want to be with anyone else right now.
And heres a tiny little snippet from my video piece (shitty quality's all that'd fit on this site
)
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You're hot.
why must you live in Canada? lol.