johnnyd_ranged

Let the reading week commense, damn how can the weekend be over already, thats just not right. Some how I'm gonna hafta force myself away from booze and women and fun for a while to get shit done... my nearly complete lack of funds will prob help with that. I think I stocked up on enough craziness with all the face licking, head butting, public disturbing, sexy lady dancing good times. I haven't felt down at all for a long time, its sorta strange, I don't know if it's cuz i'm actually doing really good, or if I'm just keeping myself too busy to dwell on anything.. I'm pretty sure its the former, cuz although I'm not dwelling, I'm still not denying whats there and just sort of accept it. Now without feeling completely fucked up what the hell am I gonna use to drive my art? ha, I guess I'm still fucked in the head and have a big pot of shit bubbling up there... just upset I don't have the uber-emotions I had with last project which ended up with my best work ever.. hahaha thats sad, cuz that state of mind is the last place i want to return to.
Edit: Maybe it's on account of being at about the infamous 3 month point of not smoking bud thats begun to level my head out