Today has been a sad and blah kind of day for me. Back on the 4th of this month I lost my father. It's been especially difficult for me personally cause I was the one who came home and found him non responsive. Today was our first holiday without him here and it has me feeling very down.
Some days have been more rough than others. I try to keep myself busy and distracted, but to no avail. Today is a prime example. Went to wash the car. Clean it out. Go for a long drive and spend some time with friends. But all and all my dad and him not being here is all that stuck on my mind.
It's been hard to find friends to talk to as everyone has been busy with is being the holidays and busy with their own things so I've been keeping a lot of it to myself and been trying to deal with everything to myself. This has been the first time I really this public about how I have been feeling and trying to deal with things. I'm not sure how to cope with the loss. And I'm just...... I'm just unsure about a lot of things 😔
