So this addiction is more like a compulsion. I need to be wanted, desired and loved. I need to feel accepted. For some reason, I only process that through sex. It probably because it is the absolute most intimate thing you can do with another person. It brings your mind, bodies and souls together as one.
This can obviously cause issues though. I have a very tough time distinguishing between love and lust. I hate it. My last girlfriend and I started off so hot and heavy, it took me weeks to realize we had absolutely nothing in common. I realize that the only thing we share was sex. And because it was only sex, I lost that feeling of being loved.
You know, I have never had a relationship where I received not only that emotional love but also that physical love. I have never been lucky enough to find someone who both lusts and loves me. And this is where my pessimism takes hold, and makes me think I never will.