AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh.
I have no one left to talk to anymore. There are only two people who have the slightest clue as to what is really going on in my life, and one of them is so broken hearted that she can barely even function, and I have to try and be strong for her, when at the same time i'm having all the same feelings,...
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I have no one left to talk to anymore. There are only two people who have the slightest clue as to what is really going on in my life, and one of them is so broken hearted that she can barely even function, and I have to try and be strong for her, when at the same time i'm having all the same feelings,...
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kreatinkaos:
Yes .. life does have a way of sucking sometimes 
grumpyoldbastard:
HI wish i could see the bunny nut it would not load 
Its official...I feel drugged. All day today i've been exhuasted and feeling like someone slipped me something. But I suppose my increased meds are prolly just kicking in, Its weird though because emotionally today I have felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. thats weird for me. But its really actually not that welcome. Granted i've been feeling too much lately, but for me to feel nothing is...
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kreatinkaos:
Well I need pills to sleep every night
timtoxic:
Same old same old. Life that is. Never seems to change much. That is the reality of it all. Cool phone. You should gimme a call sometime. 
Ok, so I am very angry with someone right now. He completely shattered her. And Mister, thanks for calling her. I don't know what to do for her, or tell her, but i'm trying my hardest to just be there.
As for me, i'm doing alright. I'm pissed off though because I found out this weekend that my landlords are selling their house, and along...
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As for me, i'm doing alright. I'm pissed off though because I found out this weekend that my landlords are selling their house, and along...
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kreatinkaos:
That sucks about your landlords selling the place , good luck finding a better place
grimmygrimm:
he sorry for the lack of talk iv been really really in a hectic mind state.. But i miss talking to you so expect a call in the near future
by the way you want a change,,, $8 full time, unlimited overtime, benefits, and chance for bonuses but its in portland taking calls for nextel... *hug* 
by the way you want a change,,, $8 full time, unlimited overtime, benefits, and chance for bonuses but its in portland taking calls for nextel...
*hug* I feel like I am going to vomit 
I'm on my way to my parents house to come clean about myself. Since they are the ones paying for my therapy I feel like they should know that I feel over-medicated, suicidal, and that I cut myself.
But, i'm scared. I don't want to scare them, stress them out or make them worry, but at the...
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I'm on my way to my parents house to come clean about myself. Since they are the ones paying for my therapy I feel like they should know that I feel over-medicated, suicidal, and that I cut myself.
But, i'm scared. I don't want to scare them, stress them out or make them worry, but at the...
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nonameninja:
I'm so freaking prowd of you....and I'm alwas here for anything...infact this weekend if you'd like we can do another dinner and movie night...
timtoxic:
I am proud of you too. It took a lot of couyrage to get some help. I do worry about you since your jornals are so depresive. Remember there are good people and friends out there. Most of us have been through a lot knowing what it is like and we don't easily forget. Lots of and to you.
and to you. I realized a few things today:
-I'm over medicated
-I can say no
-Boys suck
--There are things I like about myself
-I'm proud of some of my recent decisions
-I am determined
-I am sad
Thats just a few for now. Goodnight
-I'm over medicated
-I can say no
-Boys suck
--There are things I like about myself
-I'm proud of some of my recent decisions
-I am determined
-I am sad
Thats just a few for now. Goodnight
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timtoxic:
Thanks.
timtoxic:
How was your weekend. Did you do anything fun? I watched my kids but they are back home now. I'm board.
Ugh...life is full of drama and i'm tired of dealing with it. yes, everyone has their problems, but do I really have to deal with theirs?! I felt yucky last night. And I don't mean because I was sick. Just icky. I don't want to get into it.
I'm tired, i got maybe three hours of sleep if I was lucky last night. Boys are...
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I'm tired, i got maybe three hours of sleep if I was lucky last night. Boys are...
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nonameninja:
you alwas sleep through movies!!
kreatinkaos:
Life will get better
I dont know what to say. But I don't want that shit up on my page anymore. Yes I still feel that way, but looking at it pains me just as much as the fact that I wrote it.
Getting through each day. I don't know how but i'm trying. I have my first bio midterm tommorow and I really don't think i'm going to...
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Getting through each day. I don't know how but i'm trying. I have my first bio midterm tommorow and I really don't think i'm going to...
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violently:
i am emailing you my number if you want to talk. i am totally here for you lady <3
nonameninja:
hey come by and I'll give to a relaxing day...hell I'll even cook I was thinking about it work last night and I came up with something that I now see is just in time...you'll like it...oh and good luck on the test I'm proud of you
Tonight I have not stopped crying. I AM SICK OF ALL THE BULLSHIT. I'm not going around badmouthing you. I am in pain too. I want to talk to you, I am worried about you and contrary to your beliefs I DO CARE and I would call but your "out with friends", and thats fine, at least your not sitting at home by yourself. I...
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kreatinkaos:
I hope you are coping better now
yumchen:
Living is hell. I truly believe that. We get through all this day to day shit to live for those few moments of real love and happiness that are heaven.
I think I know some of what you are feeling and hope it passes soon so you can see again into the goodness that life can be.
I lived in Eugene up till last year. I just thought it was strange coming across your journal like I did and you are so close to my home.
Hope things are better soon,
Joy
I think I know some of what you are feeling and hope it passes soon so you can see again into the goodness that life can be.
I lived in Eugene up till last year. I just thought it was strange coming across your journal like I did and you are so close to my home.
Hope things are better soon,
Joy
/ginormous hugs