jodi_marie

I am a people pleaser...through and through. I tend to put other peoples needs before my own, and that gets me into trouble. I like being needed, its part of what gets my through my days. But not like this. My big sister is hurting. And I don't know what to do for her. It kills me. I can tell her that I've been through a similiar situation. I think she tends to forget that I also have life experience under my belt. She is the older one, she is supposed to be the protector. She has a hard time taking down the walls and admitting that she needs help. But really, isn't that what family is for? It hurts me so much to see her this way, and yet at the same time I'm glad she is finally opening up to me. I just wish it didn't have to be under such circumstances.

I have been cheated on before...multiple times. It sucks. She made a brave decision in kicking her out. One that a few years ago I wouldn't have been able to make. But it doesn't stop the pain I know that she IS feeling and will CONTINUE to feel for quite sometime. I want to be able to make everything better. I want to be able to show her that while I may be the little sister, I have something to give, to show her that she can let her guard down with me and that I will be here to help her fall. And more importantly that I will be here to help pick her back up again. I love her so much, but I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing for her. And it kills me.