AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh.
I have no one left to talk to anymore. There are only two people who have the slightest clue as to what is really going on in my life, and one of them is so broken hearted that she can barely even function, and I have to try and be strong for her, when at the same time i'm having all the same feelings, but "its her turn" to be the weak one.
The other person doesn't want to have "those conversations" anymore. I feel like I made a huge mistake, I just want things to be ok. But it doesn't feel like they ever will be. Dying sounds good right about now. I had a horrible dream about said person last night. I woke up crying and hyperventilation. God the thought just terrifies me.
I am weak. And I need support, but all my support is dwindling. I feel like i'm going to have to start keeping everything to myself. Which for me is difficult. I"m a talker by nature. But i've run out of ears to listen. I feel very hopeless right now. I feel empty inside.
I have no one left to talk to anymore. There are only two people who have the slightest clue as to what is really going on in my life, and one of them is so broken hearted that she can barely even function, and I have to try and be strong for her, when at the same time i'm having all the same feelings, but "its her turn" to be the weak one.
The other person doesn't want to have "those conversations" anymore. I feel like I made a huge mistake, I just want things to be ok. But it doesn't feel like they ever will be. Dying sounds good right about now. I had a horrible dream about said person last night. I woke up crying and hyperventilation. God the thought just terrifies me.
I am weak. And I need support, but all my support is dwindling. I feel like i'm going to have to start keeping everything to myself. Which for me is difficult. I"m a talker by nature. But i've run out of ears to listen. I feel very hopeless right now. I feel empty inside.
/ginormous hugs