I'm afraid i'm going to slip and fall.
I'm full of feelings right now, some good some bad. I don't really know what to say other than. GUH. I'm tired and i'm hurting, on my insides on my outsides, and myself. I am trying to be strong throughout this whole ordeal. But my mind feels like it is going to pop like a huge pimple. I'm getting crampy and I have to go to school and i'm tired and I want to go to bed. My mind constantly wanders. I cry at work, I cry at home, But I don't know what its for. I'm trying to make myself happy for once, and I think i'm doing an alright job. I have been keeping myself busy with work, school and watching the kids. My family has been a big help. As have my friends. I want to focus on me, and figure out who I am, what I want to do with my life, school, and find something that I really enjoy and am passionate about. It doesn't ever seem like I will find these things, but if I try hard enough and spend enough time on it, I know that SOME DAY, I will find things that make me happy, whatever that may be. I just want things to be ok. I don't want it to be a big ordeal even though it has been. Its been done, can we move on please. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!
ok, enough of the rambling to myself. please don't mind if it doesn't make sense, its just me getting thoughts out to myself. Off to school
I'm full of feelings right now, some good some bad. I don't really know what to say other than. GUH. I'm tired and i'm hurting, on my insides on my outsides, and myself. I am trying to be strong throughout this whole ordeal. But my mind feels like it is going to pop like a huge pimple. I'm getting crampy and I have to go to school and i'm tired and I want to go to bed. My mind constantly wanders. I cry at work, I cry at home, But I don't know what its for. I'm trying to make myself happy for once, and I think i'm doing an alright job. I have been keeping myself busy with work, school and watching the kids. My family has been a big help. As have my friends. I want to focus on me, and figure out who I am, what I want to do with my life, school, and find something that I really enjoy and am passionate about. It doesn't ever seem like I will find these things, but if I try hard enough and spend enough time on it, I know that SOME DAY, I will find things that make me happy, whatever that may be. I just want things to be ok. I don't want it to be a big ordeal even though it has been. Its been done, can we move on please. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!
ok, enough of the rambling to myself. please don't mind if it doesn't make sense, its just me getting thoughts out to myself. Off to school
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timtoxic:
Sounds Like a bout of depression going on here. I hope happiness finds a way into your heart. 
timtoxic:
Yes. I got over my soar throat so my heart and kidneys are doing fine for now. My pills work well for depression which I know a lot about except the part of feeling lonely.