Went to portland this weekend. Did lots of shopping, which is always fun. I had a good time. But its monday and I was late for work because after I had gotten up and showered and go ready, I apparently decided to go back to sleep.
Things on my mind today:
-I totally suck at school and need to get my ass into gear
-I...
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Things on my mind today:
-I totally suck at school and need to get my ass into gear
-I...
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I looked in the mirror...
* I hadn't showered
* I didn't have any makeup on
* My hair was kinda greasy and up in a nasty pony
* I was exhuasted
And I thought "damn I really am cute.
Huge step for me.
* I hadn't showered
* I didn't have any makeup on
* My hair was kinda greasy and up in a nasty pony
* I was exhuasted
And I thought "damn I really am cute.
Huge step for me.
violently:
GO YOU! 
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yumchen:
I love when those moments happen.
Thanks for the b-day wishes! I am having a fantastic week!
Thanks for the b-day wishes! I am having a fantastic week!
Ok, first of all YAY for finally getting constant internet back. Just to bad it took three days to get it figured out. Blug, I have been up until 2 in the morning for days trying to get it to work, because i'm sharing with another guy in my apt. so we have to make sure the connection reaches mine, yeah well lets just say...
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violently:
But also that i'm learning to accept what I have, and that really I might not look as bad as my mind can make me look.
AMEN LADY!
That's the hardest thing for me to realize...I am always like OMG I AM DISGUSTING, but sometimes ya gotta step back and realize hey wait a second, I am NOT! I am just down on myself cus of this, and this and this, etc etc.
When we're stressed out our mind plays evil tricks on us. It sucks.
Congrats on the weight loss thing too btw 
AMEN LADY!
That's the hardest thing for me to realize...I am always like OMG I AM DISGUSTING, but sometimes ya gotta step back and realize hey wait a second, I am NOT! I am just down on myself cus of this, and this and this, etc etc.
When we're stressed out our mind plays evil tricks on us. It sucks.
Congrats on the weight loss thing too btw
Finally, today I got a "me" day. I've been so busy lately and i'm starting to get worn down. So, today I slept late, did some cleaning, messed around online, played some games, did some cleaning, took a bath. mmmmmmm, so lovely. I enjoy it. And now I think i'm going to watch a movie.
I love getting to take time out for yourself when...
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Well, internet has been down but i'm currently working on getting it up and running again. Not really much has been going on, school and work. Everyday I talk to cute boy a little bit more! 
I wish today was friday, and not tommorow. But I don't really have anything planned for the weekend, other than studying, so i'm actually quite excited about that! yay....
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kreatinkaos:
I need to get a new phone too , mine needs another battery .... the third one since last November 
Yay for impromtu trips to the beach! I woke up with a phone call from my friend asking if I wanted to go to florence for the day to play on the beach! It was a blast. Wet, cold, windy and rainy, but still so much fun!
I have no work or school tommorow, but have a doctors appointment in town at 8. Ticks me...
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I have no work or school tommorow, but have a doctors appointment in town at 8. Ticks me...
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kreatinkaos:
What are you planning to fill the flask with ?
yumchen:
I love the beach. Even when it's cold and rainy.
I really want to see brokeback mountain. Everyone I know who has seen it thinks it's great.
I really want to see brokeback mountain. Everyone I know who has seen it thinks it's great.
School started, lots of cute boys in my classes, so thats a plus. But I was coughing so hard last night that I started to vomit, so that cancelled going to class. How hot would it have been if i'm sitting there listening to lecture and all of a sudden I have a coughing fit and vomit goes all over the table?!
It amazes me...
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violently:
I know how you feel with the ups and downs...eventually the bad days will go away, it just takes time unfortunately 
I'd tell you to keep giving this guy a chance...maybe he's your stepping stone...the reason you're just not into him is because you're really not over asshat, but in time you'll fine yourself liking him. Sadly this is kind of what I did with Mike, but I find myself liking him more and more everyday. I think most of it was not wanting to let go of Wonderboy, but the more I let go the more I realize I DO deserve a nice guy, and the attraction comes with realizing that I DO deserve to be treated nicely and that I AM a good person, and so forth. I think I was just really scared. Hell I STILL am scared.
However, if you're not into it you're not into it. So let him know. Or you can take the passive-aggressive route and just stop hanging out with him, giving him excuses until he stops calling, etc. Which is kinda crappy, but we're all guilty of it because it's way easier than being like, "hey dude, I'm not into you." Although I don't know why that is, I mean, if you think about it logically, it's so quick, dry and painless...or it should be.
Fuck I dunno, and now I'm typing a novel in your comments haha. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in this endeavor, I'm still struggling along myself, so you know I'm always here for you. Love you bunches lady
xoxoxo
I'd tell you to keep giving this guy a chance...maybe he's your stepping stone...the reason you're just not into him is because you're really not over asshat, but in time you'll fine yourself liking him. Sadly this is kind of what I did with Mike, but I find myself liking him more and more everyday. I think most of it was not wanting to let go of Wonderboy, but the more I let go the more I realize I DO deserve a nice guy, and the attraction comes with realizing that I DO deserve to be treated nicely and that I AM a good person, and so forth. I think I was just really scared. Hell I STILL am scared.
However, if you're not into it you're not into it. So let him know. Or you can take the passive-aggressive route and just stop hanging out with him, giving him excuses until he stops calling, etc. Which is kinda crappy, but we're all guilty of it because it's way easier than being like, "hey dude, I'm not into you." Although I don't know why that is, I mean, if you think about it logically, it's so quick, dry and painless...or it should be.
Fuck I dunno, and now I'm typing a novel in your comments haha. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in this endeavor, I'm still struggling along myself, so you know I'm always here for you. Love you bunches lady
xoxoxo
yumchen:
Agreed
I had a lovely weekend! On saturday I got my christmas present from my friend Jaimie, which was to go and get pedicures!!!!!! It feels so lovely, and now I have pretty pink toes, which match my hair!! I just enjoy getting a whole new look, and really I look nothing like I used to, which also makes me happy.
School starts today...yay for writing....
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yumchen:
Yay for you! Pink hair AND tattos! Lucky!! Love the tattoo choice by the way.
I am getting into eugene thursday about 9pm. It's going to be kind of a scary drive.
I am then heading up to portland sometime friday during the day after I wake up and have breakfast.
You available for brunch or coffee maybe friday brunchish time?
I am getting into eugene thursday about 9pm. It's going to be kind of a scary drive.
I am then heading up to portland sometime friday during the day after I wake up and have breakfast.
You available for brunch or coffee maybe friday brunchish time?
yumchen:
yea, I was really looking forward to this weekend.
So, i'm finally feeling better, Yay for that. Still not good, i'm still hacking like a MF, but you know, at least i'm not bed ridden anymore. Today is going to be a good day because I say so! so HA! anyhoo, I got new hair yesterday, its pink, which I have always wanted to do so that makes me happy. I have to buy...
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kreatinkaos:
I belive it's sudacare that makes these little shower packs that you place in the bottom of the shower stall while taking a long hot steamy shower , they make a strong vapor that help clear out your chest
yumchen:
Glad you are feeling better! Being sick sucks ass.
Yay for pink hair!! So much fun! Mine is going back to red today as school starts monday. blah. Oh well.
Something fun... hmmm..... For fun I like to visit the Celeb worhsip group. It's full of silly photos and snarkiness. It entertains me.
Yay for pink hair!! So much fun! Mine is going back to red today as school starts monday. blah. Oh well.
Something fun... hmmm..... For fun I like to visit the Celeb worhsip group. It's full of silly photos and snarkiness. It entertains me.
I am too sick to even stand it. I've lost about ten pounds from not being able to eat, and my whole body is sore from the hacking and coughing, my head is pounding, my temerature is almost 103. I can't sleep because im coughing or else i'm having hot and cold flashes. ugh somebody save me...
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yumchen:
Drink fluid and DO eat!! Your metabolism goes way up when it's fighting infection and you need to feed your body when it's putting up a fight.
Even if it's just broth or oatmeal keep trying. Make sure when you are getting fluids down that you are getting some salt and sugar to keep your electrolytes balanced.
Take the medicine you need so you can sleep. I love nyquil (the generic version). It will let you sleep so your body can focus on fighting.
Hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!!!!
Even if it's just broth or oatmeal keep trying. Make sure when you are getting fluids down that you are getting some salt and sugar to keep your electrolytes balanced.
Take the medicine you need so you can sleep. I love nyquil (the generic version). It will let you sleep so your body can focus on fighting.
Hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!!!!
yumchen:
p.s. it seems you have been sick for 4 days now. Have you seen a doctor?
Happy New Year! I'm sick as fuck. What a wonderful way to start a new year. I can't breathe and I feel like i'm going to vomit, on top of the massive case of chills I have right now. Fuck it, i'm going to bed
kreatinkaos:
Happy new year , I hope you feel better soon
timtoxic:
Happy new year to you. I hope you get well soon.
It's time for work and I don't want to go. But thats life. Went to the coast the other day. It was pretty fun, but a quick trip. I think i'm gonna try and hang out with my sister today as its her last night here But you know, the holidays go quick and then its back to life, and school. Ugh that reminds me...
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timtoxic:
The beach is always fun to be at.
hellomrworld:
just remember that financial aid is your friend ... esp. grants
List making is a good thing. It's one of the myriad of techniques I am exploring in my quest. No more paying a counselor to yes me to death, all I need it a pen and a napkin... for starters!