I'm excited!!!
I think I met someone that I really like... Now that I write that it occurs to me that I don't really know what she thinks on a lot of things, or how she smells, or moves, or smiles, or... I should clarify that this happened online, although she apparently was a student of mine a few years back for just a month or two, in a big 80+ people class, so I don't really remember her from back then.
She is beautiful and she plays the sax so nicely
. My heart skipped a few beats today, honest.
Is it weird to be a little in love with someone you have yet to meet?
Oh, gosh, I am such a mess
The funny part is that I already know we'll be probably meeting on Wednesday at a little dancing place (a guy's house, actually), and on Thursday she wants to come over and attend one of my classes, so I think it's almost a given that we'll be meeting soon... But still can't wait 
Don't get me wrong it's not that I am projecting tons of things into her, it's quite the opposite, I am EAGER to spend A LOT of time with her trying to find out who she is, what she wants, thinks, likes, hates, cares for... I just want the chance to DISCOVER her and find her little quirky things, or maybe even those things that can make being together not quite possible... But I just feel like I need to know now
Does any of this makes any sense to y'all?
I'm having a hard time behaving like an adult with her Not quite "mgdsfghbllll" level of not being able to talk, but I am definitely not my normal self... That weird rush, the crazy sensations, the sweet choreography of the brain's chemistry growing while you wait for a reply... And the non-stop internal dialogue trying to solve the conflict between the side that wants to talk and say nice things and the side that thinks it's best to try and keep a lower profile (a.k.a. avoiding the creepy syndrome)
Advice? Thoughts? Experiences? Donations? (it never hurts to try...)
I think I need a drink (but I don't drink)
PS: How funny is that last blog was about not finding anyone to talk to and share stuff with?
I think I met someone that I really like... Now that I write that it occurs to me that I don't really know what she thinks on a lot of things, or how she smells, or moves, or smiles, or... I should clarify that this happened online, although she apparently was a student of mine a few years back for just a month or two, in a big 80+ people class, so I don't really remember her from back then.
She is beautiful and she plays the sax so nicely
. My heart skipped a few beats today, honest.Is it weird to be a little in love with someone you have yet to meet?
Oh, gosh, I am such a mess
The funny part is that I already know we'll be probably meeting on Wednesday at a little dancing place (a guy's house, actually), and on Thursday she wants to come over and attend one of my classes, so I think it's almost a given that we'll be meeting soon... But still can't wait Don't get me wrong it's not that I am projecting tons of things into her, it's quite the opposite, I am EAGER to spend A LOT of time with her trying to find out who she is, what she wants, thinks, likes, hates, cares for... I just want the chance to DISCOVER her and find her little quirky things, or maybe even those things that can make being together not quite possible... But I just feel like I need to know now
Does any of this makes any sense to y'all?
I'm having a hard time behaving like an adult with her
Not quite "mgdsfghbllll" level of not being able to talk, but I am definitely not my normal self... That weird rush, the crazy sensations, the sweet choreography of the brain's chemistry growing while you wait for a reply... And the non-stop internal dialogue trying to solve the conflict between the side that wants to talk and say nice things and the side that thinks it's best to try and keep a lower profile (a.k.a. avoiding the creepy syndrome)Advice? Thoughts? Experiences? Donations? (it never hurts to try...)
I think I need a drink (but I don't drink
)PS: How funny is that last blog was about not finding anyone to talk to and share stuff with?