jlevi

I did not know that I could go red in the face, but today I did. An overwhelming sense of shame, heat, and claustrophobia engulfed me.

I went into a cafe because I saw a friend as I was walking past. For over half an hour I did not realize that two friends I've had since high school sat directly behind me. When one of them got up for water I said, "Hello. Oh have you been sitting here the whole time?" Her response was yes. As I turned to look at her I noticed the person she was sitting with was my other friend.

For some reason I was quite upset that I should not have noticed my friends as I walk in to see another friend. Why? I ask myself, but I don't know why. If anything, both of them should have been quite embarrassed as I have made multiple attempts to see them. Here they are, though, sitting together.

Really I don't think that way. I just felt so flustered to have made such a social faux pas, especially towards very good friends. One seemed irritated.

Amidst the conversation with my drop-in friend I discussed a mutual acquaintance we both had: my ex-girlfriend. It really made me feel less like forgiving her than I did before I talked about it. Isn't that peculiar?


Mmm. Leninade