jlevi

Third day of March and I didn't write a single word today! I figure I have about 1,200 words so far (I typed a bit up). So far it's great. I'm having a lot of fun writing it and I think that's all that matters.

I have been having a tough time with the break up lately. Whenever I see the my ex or the guy I used to hang out with it makes me a feel really terrible. Anxious, angry, and annoyed. So I don't know whether this is me overreacting or if this is a something a normal person would be upset about. It was less than three weeks and she was already hanging out with him. It has happened to me more than once already so I really don't have any respect for people that do this and I don't really want them in my life. It's not just an ex moving on, it's a friend deciding it's okay to date your ex. What shitty people.

BUT DAMMIT! If I'm not having a great time on the dating scene. I'm meeting new people which I really enjoy the most. I was moving fast with one girl, which kind of freaked me out. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm not ready for a relationship or if I just know I don't want one. I have come to terms with the fact that I mostly just don't want someone expecting shit of me.

The other girl is older, but I have a great time whenever we hang out and we haven't even hugged. I like talking to her and if nothing came of it I'd love to just have her as a friend.

I'm blabbing to get my blog count up to get back into V and E dammit. I'll have shit to say at least.