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Monday Aug 25, 2003

Aug 25, 2003
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So I really need to get my shit together so I don't end up institutionalized again...
Yeah depression sucks donkey dick and I can't seem to shake it...
So I'm officially banned from SG events. Oh well. I dig this community a lot so it bothers me that I acted like a stoned, lonely asshole and upset people. I'm sorry for that. I'll try and straighten up my act SG.
Seriously though. I have to stop caring what people think of me. We all wear many hats. The hat that I have been wearing lately is a stoned, depressed asshole and though I'm not proud of it, it's what I've doing to cope. I can't shake this fucking depression and I can't get myself together. I need to just stop giving a fuck what the general public thinks of me.
The people that know me, know that I'm a goofy, sweet, and harmless little boy. Yes I get high and horny but whatever. Yes I am an asshole and almost killed myself and think of it again but it's who I am.
I'm working on myself and now that I rambled on like a big dick,
I just want to say that on here Leanne and JP have known me on my good and bad days and stuck around (well at least Leanne-JP, you're a great guy and great for Leanne so it's all good.). They will vouch for me if needed but whatever fuck it. If people want to get to know the real me then you can.
Peace and I'm out.
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bort79:
Yeah I've pissed people off on here a few times but nothing bad has came from it. Yet anyway. Wow your journal sounds alot like me. Depressed, suicidal, and I have tried to kill myself.

Well have a good weekend!
Aug 30, 2003
bort79:
Truthfully I'm still depressed. Most of the time! But the worst I ever was is when I found out that my new wife of 6 months was cheating on me. I lost her and my step-son that I had raised since his birth for 2 1/2 years. I OD on drugs (presription and illegal). I was in the hospital for alittle while and in therapy. The only reason I keep going on is I've seen what almost killing myself did to my friends. What if I would of gone through with it. So I just think about the people I would hurt. Plus go out and have fun as much as possible! smile
Aug 30, 2003

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