jivesucka52

Why am I awake is the question? I don't know..
I had a weird night. I got high with two 18 year olds who were supposed to get coke...I'm having second thoughts about coke. It seems to hard to get and I don't want to become a druggie or anything. We'll see...If Faux and I do it off some cute girl's ass then maybe...
I always forget that people have lives and don't update or read their journal as often as me. They are not as loserish, slackerish, or bored as I am.
I hope this trip does't destroy me and Faux too much. I guess it will only do what I want it to. Drugs and threesomes like we discussed? Maybe. I'm young and can be adventurous...
My novel has taken a new turn. Rather than ending, I think it's going to enter into a weird Fear and Loathing type vibe. Commentary and drug filled writing and adventures. We'll see...At least I'm not literally trying to destroy myself anymore and I haven't been suicidal for a while. That's a plus...I don't think anything could be much worse than being in a mental institution anyway. One of the best and worst experiences of my life...Shit. Yeah I guess that's it for now. I'm going to ramble some more somewhere else I guess. Morning or night people...Hopefully sleep will come later.