Hit 33, a few days ago, and I hate this time of the year. New Year's Eve and my birthday always force me to reflect on myself and what I had done. Since I began working for NBC, I have kinda been on the fast-track to no where, and I have slowly been getting angrier and angrier, all due to the tedious , demanding and unexciting workload. It's nice to get paid, but my list of friends dwindles and my motivation is pretty much shot.
I'm bored. Very bored. I live a routine, and I feel as though it takes a year for something exciting to happen. Need to change my life, it has gotten too boring. slapping graphics together made for 2-4 seconds of air-time, is no longer exciting work. Especially when we are now forced to slap stock images in with no graphical enhancements or changes. It's reached the point where a monkey could do our work for us. Just tired of devoting my time and life to a company that does not entirely respect me back for the work I do, would rather devote it to something that can make a difference in this world. Been swaying on the topic of joining the service. Sell the house, pay off my student loan, lock up the car, and see what I can accomplish in 4 years. Most likely better than the shit I accomplished at nbc...
Still single. Keep running into women who are either in a committed relationship or just bat-shit insane. Tired of trying. Online dating has been fairly poor, as well. The women there are either terribly shallow (can tell when I read their profiles and all they do is describe why you "shouldn't" bother, and seem to want a career drive Chris Hemsworth type). Always though the 1 of 10 rule would work, when it comes to trying and messaging, but it really doesn't.
Ah well... The world is a sick and delusional place to live, and sometimes it requires more effort to make it 180. Just hard to find that effort when you just don't care anymore.