jhamie34

tonite i was ill...my stomach is still a little sore, but not as bad as before...i tried sleeping and was in that spot between sleep and awake, for like 2 hours, so i decided to see who was online...i was about to go back to bed, when i saw HER name was on..jen...i haven't talked to her one on one since i lost my virginity to her, at the beginning of March...an offline message here, and there, but never one on one at the same time, you know? so i IM'ed her and got no response...it was yahoo instant messenger playing a cruel joke on me again...i joined her in chat and she was in a sex chat room...then her name simply vanished, after a few minutes...then i exited yahoo and came back on and it was back and she was in a different chat room of the same nature...i know she was not really there because she wouldn't have been cruel to me, i know her better than that...but it hurts anyways, to know she is still interested in sexual things, just not with me...
this letter to you, my dear shanti, will also be my journal entry, because i am too emotionally defeated right now to retype any of the sentiment...i hope your weekend was fine, and all that jazz...
your friend,
james