It'll be 4 years since I graduated high school in june. Im looking back on the past four years and the only thing I see is disappointment. I can hardly believe who I've become. It seems like I have no future. Over the next year the people I graduated with will all be finishing college and moving on to their careers but it seems like my life has paused right after highschool. Granted im not the same person I was in highschool and I thank god for that, but it feels like I have no drive, no momentum to go back to school. I've been digging myself deeper and deeper into debt under the false pretense that I could somehow get out of it, but as shit starts to go wrong I see that the goals I have made seem farther and farther away. Can I really be destined to be like my parents? As much as I've tried to NOT become like them it only seems inevitable now. Im stuck in the doldrums of the seas of life. Usually im not one to eel sorry about myself, but I just can't seem to shake this......
