jewl

first and foremost THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO SENT ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY COMMENTS <3 I LOVE YOU ALL

So, yesterday felt like it was 320940198471089374 hours long, and it actually wasnt a bad thing. shocker i know . I had practice with asia and john, then amanda. I went to history class and took notes while everyone took a test, and then i finally went home. Showered, hung for a bit and then my good friend Jeremy came over. He met my parents for the first time and let me tell you, its like theyve known each other for forever. Its crazy how well they got along. So, after 2 hours of them talking haha, we left to go to the E. Town Concrete show with Scarhead, Billy Club Sandwich and God Forbid. Welp, despite the fact that there was every possible hardcore gang made stuffed into one venue, the show was AMAZING. Ant from Etown was hillarious. He started singing that Beyonce 'single ladies' song haha and he was doing that fat guy dance. so funny. OHH and then he busted out the "ima cowboy, on a steel horse i ride, im wanted, dead or alive" hahah, sooo funny. We got wristbands, ((hes 21, but im only 19)) so we were able to sit down and junk, it was really convinient. He knew alot of big guys hahaha it was cool meeting new people and enjoying some of my favv bands So after, we came back to my house and steffy picked me up to go over to her boyfriends house ((who wasnt home anyway hahha)) we hung around with her boyfriend's brother Danny. He made soco and lime haha, we had a few shots and watched some TV. Overall, i had an amazing birthday. It meant alot.

I did purposely leave a part out, because it was really important to me. In between school and home I made a stop at the cemetary... yeah. I parked, walked down the sidewalk, passed my grandfather, and knelt down by Paul. The flowers on his grave are dead brown and falling apart. Everything looks mangled and gross, except one thing. The only thing that was perfectly clear, sitting right on top of his grave, perfectly untouched and undamaged, was the word "Uncle" that was on our flowers. And its stupid, but everytime ((2 times ha)) ive been there, its shaded and then all of a sudden the brightest light will come through the clouds. Its just warming I suppose. So i pulled myself away from him, walked back down the sidewalk, stopped at my grandfathers for a minute and went back to my car. It wasnt until i was driving that a dream i had the night before came back to me. I got a text, and it said it was from Paul. I was like who is this?! and it replied back "Paul" i texted back "Thats not funny!!!" I was with someone that i dont remember who, and i was just really really upset... and thats when i woke up. I dont really know what to make of it, but i just kinda got a nonchalant feel from it. Like he was okay.. I dont know, I guess im looking too far into this.

OKAY!! sorry for the depressing shit haha.


So today im 19, im gunna try my best to make this a good year



<33 thank you again everyone. it meant alot to have so many people wishing me a happy birthday.
Jewl




the single ladies video that ant was impersonating hahah vvv