jewel

ever have that feeling where you feel like no matter what you do you feel like a litte girl?
even tho to "most" people im so cute
yes i love that
but i dont wanna be cute i wanna be sexy or hot.
sometimes i stare at my face thinking i look like a little girl that will never grow up.
something about my eyes can tell that i still feel like a little girl
i dont know what is it
but i guess my whole life i was incoccent and my parents keep me from doing alot of things
cause they wanted me to always be thier "little girl"
im tired of it

they wont let me grow up i think that is why i feel like a little girl too
im stuck at home..at least im working..not alot i need to get out there in life or im gonna be a LITTLE FUCKING GIRL my whole life.

and i always look at other girls saying how pretty they are compared to me or how much older they look and then they are younger then me.
oh well
i just had to rant this has been bugging me all day.


oh does any of the girls know how long sg would take to get back on a set?
i sent one in sept and i havent gotten an email or anything saying if they liked it or not
and then one day i got a pink sg top in the mail.....
any ideas??