jewcy

we broke up. we're still going to be friends. i think. i don't know. it's up to him, because i think he's still really awesome, and i still see all those things that made me like him initially even before we were a couple. so, i guess it's up to him because, i really still want him to be in my life. i just hope he feels the same way.

he's like, my best friend. i guess even though we're not together as a couple anymore, i don't think i could just give that up. i don't know. it's hard to say what i really mean. i mean, i mean what i've said so far, i just don't know if the way i'm wording it is really accurate.

we both had the feelings, we just.. i don't know. basically, feelings: check. logisitics: no.

i don't know.. when i think about it logically, and i think that we're still going to be friends, and when i think about how much that means to me, i feel like i shouldn't even be crying, but i don't know. it's just really hard. the worst part was hearing him cry. i don't think i've ever been so upset by hearing someone cry.

i guess that's it. i mean, not really, but i don't really feel like if i keep reading this over and over again, i'll come up with some magical way to properly express myself.

so yeah. have a good one.