-gasp-..i think that i am in my jurnal but im not certain of all things.-fuck it.
all that i can do any more is laugh at life-nevik ohgr,put it best ''-smothered hope''my recent self indulgent masochistic punnishment,has amazed me once again. I have addapted the sort of complex.born from depraivity and hate for and from people that has turned me to turn off pain.-
I was doing well with keeping reminants of myself for me. but some how i fucked up- my heart is opening against my will and even though i was always expecting the worst to to come between us i am not as cold as i would like.
all that i have known throughout my life in this hell hole is that luv did'nt exsist and happiness never lasts.
I think that the worst thing about my torture is knowing when my happiness will slip out from under and away from me;-like the ash falls away from a ciggarette.
quoting micky nocks 'Mr rabbit,-Mr rabbit says a moment of realization is worth a thousand prayrs.-
speaking of realizing, things- i have realy enjoyed reading comments posted by members of this site reguarding my entries.just the kind of shit i needed to hear!-realy and its never realy been an issue of shit being said about my person on the boards that causes
my flesh trap to urk and boil to the brim.its the immature unprofound and compleatly boaring jargin that flowsout of the mouths of the heathens around me in the physical tangeable world that gets me.And realizing this-knowing that someone could be that perfect and so board that they would feel compelld to dare make judgements and acusations about mine repulses me...
but thats why music is my salvation.
_dose anyone happen to know if Skinny Puppy is going to tour for their new release-?
:
AAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHH
i could go on for to long bitching about all of my pet peeves with the ugly masses of vasade that clutter my view of the future-but....i'll spare you until the next time;.-'the comments abouve do not apply to everyone. if you are someone amongst the few and far between,-you already know ...
jetta
all that i can do any more is laugh at life-nevik ohgr,put it best ''-smothered hope''my recent self indulgent masochistic punnishment,has amazed me once again. I have addapted the sort of complex.born from depraivity and hate for and from people that has turned me to turn off pain.-
I was doing well with keeping reminants of myself for me. but some how i fucked up- my heart is opening against my will and even though i was always expecting the worst to to come between us i am not as cold as i would like.
all that i have known throughout my life in this hell hole is that luv did'nt exsist and happiness never lasts.
I think that the worst thing about my torture is knowing when my happiness will slip out from under and away from me;-like the ash falls away from a ciggarette.
quoting micky nocks 'Mr rabbit,-Mr rabbit says a moment of realization is worth a thousand prayrs.-
speaking of realizing, things- i have realy enjoyed reading comments posted by members of this site reguarding my entries.just the kind of shit i needed to hear!-realy and its never realy been an issue of shit being said about my person on the boards that causes
my flesh trap to urk and boil to the brim.its the immature unprofound and compleatly boaring jargin that flowsout of the mouths of the heathens around me in the physical tangeable world that gets me.And realizing this-knowing that someone could be that perfect and so board that they would feel compelld to dare make judgements and acusations about mine repulses me...
but thats why music is my salvation.
_dose anyone happen to know if Skinny Puppy is going to tour for their new release-?
:
AAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHH
i could go on for to long bitching about all of my pet peeves with the ugly masses of vasade that clutter my view of the future-but....i'll spare you until the next time;.-'the comments abouve do not apply to everyone. if you are someone amongst the few and far between,-you already know ...
jetta
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allsortz:
Pupys back now way, my fav piece rabies, warlock, tin omen, choralone, vivisect - harsh stone white, stairs and (from mind the perpetual intercourse) flowers , so glad to hear that they aree still at it. I lost track after the process. which wasn't great but they were going through some heavy stuff, I used to live and die on this band, and saw them during the last rites tour way back in 91 I think, yikes, I used to take so much acid , I used to think like ogre, hes really really super spooky cool and honest..
selfinflicted:
You are so ridiculously pretty - we miss you