Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

jesubleeding

Wherever I may roam

Member Since 2007

Followers 39 Following 48

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Monday Apr 30, 2007

Apr 30, 2007
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
As much as I'd like to keep Sage's song up for a few days, I had to comment on the concert I went to last night.
The show was Toki Wright (hosting and rapping a bit), One Be Lo, Psalm One, and Brother Ali.
It was intense!

They all dropped a few spoken word style poems, some just being their songs without the music.

One Be Lo is my new hero. He was awesome, he spoke things I only wished I could hear from someone besides me.
Psalm One wasn't the most attractive lady, but the way she spit was amazing! She was totally off the hook. She was on fire. I wanted to ask her out right there. She was throwing my mind into spin cycle.
Toki Wright was an awesome host. He knew what the fuck was up. I chatted with him about Planet Terror for a bit after the show. He dug my Army of Darkness shirt (that I wore to the show).
Brother Ali was off the chain. He is the most down to earth and friendliest person, I swear! I chatted him real quick after the show but was a bit too nervous.

That's the problem, if I don't really know you I'll be a bit shy (not knowing what to say or where to move to... testing the waters so as not to offend with the wrong thing or bring up strange things that no one gives a fuck about). If I really like you, I'm nervous as all hell. I'll look around nervously like I want to leave... kinda shake my legs (you know the bouncing leg thing when people are nervous or impatient)... and I'm just crazy. That was how I felt around Brother Ali and Psalm One. I tried to talk to both, but not enough words came out.

Hip Hop is different than hardcore, for sure, but in the end they're the same.
You'll see me getting down at a hardcore show absorbing their very emotions and words, then chat up the bands later about how awesome they are and how I feel everything they say.
At a hip hop show, it's like a party I wish was always happening along with the absorbing of emotions, and chatting up the group later about the show.
They both speak the truth. They both have their intensity in emotions. They're just approached differently.

I wish I could spit as well as those guys last night. I'd get up on stage and do this night after night for meager pay. Fuck the money. I want people bobbing their heads and looking at me as if they know where I'm coming from. Fuck the money, the girls, the cars, and all that bullshit. In the end it doesn't mean shit. It's all about the family blood or not. You're speaking, they're listening and or vice versa. It's about throwing out a hand to those who need a hand... be it the poor, you best friend who just broke up, or whoever.

The only downside was that I saw a few kinda cute ladies at the show AND when Psalm One was spittin I had this dream pop in my head of meeting some girl who could spit like that. Heck, I'd settle for a girl who even tried even if she wasn't that great, as long as she could feel it and spoke the truth. Bust into some poetry now and then. It's a beautiful thing.

Why is it a negative? I don't need that right now. I'm not really looking for a relationship. I'm working on my own self, my confidence, my physical appearance (and health), my writing skills... and after a 4 1/2 year relationship I'm not exactly over the last female. Even if I could make time and effort towards a new relationship I couldn't stop to think about the girl I'm with. It's not so much a bad thing being that my last relationship wasn't bad. It didn't work, but it wasn't horrible enough to regret wasting time whining over. There were some great moments that I'd love to keep in my heart forever. There were things that changed me for the better.

In the end, I'd love to meet a friend to write with. I'd love to find someone who shares the love of writing like I do and just sit and write together. To just talk about that kinda shit. It'd be great if it was a female, but since I'm not looking for a relationship I'd settle for anyone who shared my passion with this. Maybe one day I'll work up the nerve to actively seek someone like that out. Now, I'm still too nervous to talk to a girl. A 4 1/2 year relationship and I can't talk to a girl. I guess it's like starting new. You approach everything cautiously. The new girl isn't the old one and you have to work your way into the new girls heart and soul. So it takes effort, some caution, etc.

Alright, I'm done. Thanks for reading all that stuff if you actually did.
I like to know that people hear me... I like even more that people listen.
Even better is when they feel me. Catch my drift?
Thanks. It means a lot.
smile
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
annisa:
I have still yet to see Grindhouse, but am growing more curious..especially after your last comment
May 1, 2007
poopy:
Thank you for your sweet comment on my set! kiss
May 1, 2007

More Blogs

  • 04.30.07
    5

    Monday Apr 30, 2007

    As much as I'd like to keep Sage's song up for a few days, I had to c…
  • 04.18.07
    0

    Wednesday Apr 18, 2007

    Just wanted to say that all y'all are awesome! Rock!
  • 04.05.07
    1

    Thursday Apr 05, 2007

    Nothing really new to report (just everyday stuff). Work has been …
  • 03.28.07
    1

    Wednesday Mar 28, 2007

    Jammy jam jam. I just wanted to say that. I had an urge to say someth…
  • 03.26.07
    3

    Monday Mar 26, 2007

    So I don't know if my life has improved, went bad, or what the hell h…
  • 03.24.07
    1

    Saturday Mar 24, 2007

    Nothing new to report. I'm going to talk to the ex tomorrow after …
  • 02.23.07
    1

    Saturday Feb 24, 2007

    More cold weather. I haven't played Gears of War for a few days. I've…
  • 02.17.07
    0

    Saturday Feb 17, 2007

    I need to find some gamers to play on XBox live with. Any gamers out …
  • 02.16.07
    0

    Saturday Feb 17, 2007

    Finally I posted some comments on threads. I'm starting to get my wor…
  • 02.16.07
    0

    Friday Feb 16, 2007

    I'm here to bring a giggle to everyone's life. It seems to be my supe…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
10
months
2
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,597 SuicideGirls
  • 1,121,292 followers
  • 14,935,341 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,430,511 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo